Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.

Hello my faithful followers.  A few things to talk about tonight.  

Claudia- Her hip is all kinds of jacked up and that is putting it mildly.  However we have a plan to fix it and we are not going to stress it.  We are going shave the right hip were it restricts her range of motion.  This will allow her much much more range of motion and will allow her to try out for competitive cheer like she wants.  Her recovery time is 4 weeks, so we are trying to squeeze her in so she has time to try out for cheer.  Then in a year or two we will remove her hardware and possibly lengthen that leg.  She needs it, she is WAY off center.  So jacked it may be, but it will be fixed over the next few years.  She is tough and is getting what she wants by waiting to remove the hardware so she can still cheer this season.  Right now all the almost 13 year old cares about it cheer, so we will let her have it.

Braydon-  Ready for some exciting news?  Braydon is the newest member of Team Impact.  Team Impact takes kids with life threatening illnesses and chronic illnesses and gives them an opportunity to work directly with a college sports team.  So cool right?  Well we thought so, so we went all in and we have been paired.  Wanna know more?  Here is a link to Team Impact

So who did he get paired with you might ask?  Well we are SUPER excited to announce that we are paired with the Austin Peay State University Baseball Team.  Braydon will be spending some time with the Baseball team starting tomorrow.  This is huge and I will get to the whys in a minute.  Braydon smiled for the first time in a long time, like a genuine smile.  My mom is going to be taking him to the APSU baseball field and will be staying with him until I can get off of work.  We will be attending our first game either Friday or Saturday.   
Here is the APSU baseball website

So why?  Easy, my kid needs some self confidence and motivation.  I am hoping these college kids who are volunteering their time to spend it with Braydon will help.  He will get to attend practices and games at his choosing.  
I met the coach today who told me with all honesty he had no desire to be a part of this and really didn't like the idea of it.  But he said the magic words, he prayed about it.  The more he thought and prayed about it he decided to speak with me and give it a try.  He asked a lot of "tough" questions.  The more we talked the more I liked him.  He was straight forward and had some great questions.  One of the hardest was "Tell me what he was like before?"

Wow, it was like the wind was knocked out of me.  How was he "before"?  Well that is easy, he was so super social and had so many friends.  He was funny, oh my goodness he was hilarious.  He was so outgoing and talked to everyone and anyone.  He was happy.  He. Was. Happy.

I want someone to ask me to tell them about Braydon and me be able to say"He IS happy".  I cant right now and as a Parent that is the WORST feeling in the world.  So for now we search for his happiness.  His happiness is something that only he can find.  I can help him and I can push him in certain directions, which is what I have done with Team Impact and the APSU Baseball team.  I'm hoping Coach Travis and the team can help him find himself again and bring him a joy I rarely see anymore.  So just like the Coach said Im going to pray on this.  I am going to pray that God will help us find his happiness and that he will lead this team and this coach to help him.  

Right now I am sad.  And it is ok.  Ive had to remind myself it is ok to be sad.  Being happy all the time does not make everything better, it just lets the outsiders think it is.   I'm sad I let this get this far.  I HATE epilepsy and everything it has taken from the family. 

You never know someones struggle until you have walked a mile in their shoes.  I'm so incredibly lucky my struggle is not worse.  It could be.  I am so blessed for this opportunity for Braydon to met some amazing college students who have worked hard to be APSU baseball players. I believe that everything happens for a reason.  I found Team Impact for a reason, the baseball team was picked for a reason and the Prayer of the Coach changing his mind is all part of a plan.  I can't wait to see how the plan plays out. 

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