Sunday, February 24, 2013

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.

This is me as of April 2012!!  If anything I have gained weight since this picture!!  Over the past few weeks I have had a few health issues that indirectly all go back to my weight.  Some genetics, some just bad luck but at the end of the day if I watched what I ate then I would be healthier. 

     Don't get me wrong I am very happy with me.  I love a lot about myself (not to sound like an ass) but I love love love my hair, my boobs are pretty awesome and I have beautiful eyes.  But I want to be a healthier me.  I want to be able to run miles.  I want to be able to not worry whether or not I can "fit" in certain things. 

    I am a lover of life, I love to grab life by the horns and run with it like my shoes are on fire.  But my weight has hindered this for me.  Today start a better me, today starts the healthy me!!  I want to weigh what I did pre children which to be honest is A LOT of weight to shed.  However I can do it!!  I know I can.

     So today I change the unhealthy me which makes me change my habits and my attitude!!  What are you going to change?  What do you not like that you could also change??

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

We are not given a good life or a bad life. We are given a life. It’s up to us to make it good or bad.


          We are coming up on that year mark of the day that will forever change my life.  March 11th 2013 will mark one year since the start of Braydons Tonic Clonic seizures and a few days after that his diagnosis of Epilepsy. 

     Over the year I have learned a few things about Braydon, myself, my family and my friends.  Today I want to share those!!

         I learned that Braydon is TOUGH with no doubt.  I learned that he is an amazing child.  He is not letting this bet him.  All though he gets very depressed at times, he is shining like a bright bright star.  His schooling has actually improved over the year and he has done better.  He is my boy wonder.....he is my amazing little man. 

     I learned that I need to be better about taking care of me.  I had to start some medications to "balance" myself out and to be honest I never realized how bad I needed them until I realized the sane person I could be while taking them!!LOL!!   I learned I'm stronger than I ever thought I could be and I feel as though I am a better person.  I also have learned that the stress, anxiety, and poor life style I have been living is without a doubt affecting my health and I will be a healthier person by this time next year!

     My Family-  they are ALWAYS there for me and make me laugh and smile when I need it.  Claudia and Shawn have dealt with a lot this year as well and I thank them for being patient with me.  I think sometimes that they are the two sane ones in the loony bin!!  :)  My mom, sisters, in laws, and work(who by the way are family as well) have stood by and let me cry when I needed, let me vent when I needed and have told me when I'm being unreasonable and or crazy!!

    My friends-  I learned this year about true friendship and I will tell you it is the BEST feeling in the world!!  To know that I have people who will catch me when I fall, and have caught me several times over the year is the best feeling in the world.  To know that someone loves you cause they want to and not because they have to is amazing.  I love you guys very much!!

      So what Have I really learned this year????

     To live the life that I want.  To not worry about what others think or what others will do.  To love with ALL of my might and to learn to sit back and enjoy it.  I will make my life and the life of those I love the best I can!!